Random *w*

Holasi(? vuelvo a escribir en mi blog porque coso lo tenia re tirado xD En estos momentos pasan MUCHAS cosas por mi cabeza, i lo qe tengo re claro es qe no tengo claro nada(? ._. digamos qe este año le dio un giro de 180º a mi vida, supongo qe esta bien porqe en verdad necesitaba un cambio :3 lo qe me tiene tan feliz es qe ya no estoi obsecionada con Martin ^^  o sea, me importa una chota acerca de el ♥ Bendito sea el 'dicho' Un clavo saca otro clavo :B ...

Bueno como sea, pero por otra parte estoi preocupada por el liceo qe me esta llendo como el c*lo, pensadolo bien apartando todo lo qe tenga qe ver con los estudios, estoi bastante bien. Deseo qe venga ya el fucking verano ¬¬ Se hiso tan largo i la vez tan corto este año, conosi gente nueva i me olvide de gente qe en realidad no vale nada, este año fue de revelacion (? xD 

La verdad es qe personas qe no sirven para nada siempre estaran prensente en mi vida, no darles importancia es la 'clave', las cosas no salen como yo las espero, habitualemente salen peor xD pero de todas maneras estoi aprendiendo a convertir un mal momento en uno inolvidable, hai qe sobresalir (?

Estoi intentando darle un rumbo a las cosas i a no ser tan indesisa, eso me mata, lo unico qe tengo en mente ahora es pasarla bien i avansar en todo lo qe pueda (:

 

Me doi cuenta qe todo el tiempo me la paso lamentandome porqe no tengo todo lo qe quiero o porqe nada sale como yo lo espero, pero como dije antes, esto no es nada mas qe una perdida de tiempo, tengo tantas cosas en mente qe no sabria ni por donde empezar...pero como soi re jodida i rebelde (? xD no escribo nada lero lero :P coso me voi a estudiar (: ♥

Fuck it ¬¬

Otra vez me siento confundida ¬¬ en momentos como estos es cuando mas desearia no tener un corazon con el cual sentir, me cansa pasar asi las 24 horas del dias los 7 dias de la semana es agotador, i lo peor de todo es que cuando me siento asi me busco defectos i me hago mierda yo misma, no me quiero derrumbar i aunque ni yo misma lo crea hai algo qe me sostiene, "hai que quererse un poco" segun las palabras de Debora pero es dificil cuando el resto ya te hiso mierda por dentro i lo qe tenes para sacar no es otra cosa qe mierda para el resto, llega un momento de la vida qe uno dice "Basta" i ya llego mi momento, tengo 16 años i me romope la cabeza tener una vida jodida i qe nadie lo entienda, hai momentos en qe quiero tomar todo por un juego i olvidarme de los "Limites", pero hai algo qe no me lo permite, mi vida es TAN igual todos los fucking days que hasta escribo repetitivamente de lo mismo, a siqe mejor cambio de tema, cuando al fin logre sacarme de la cabeza a esa persona que ha estado atormentando a mi corazon por mas de un año llega otra para remplazar al anterior perdedor qe mi corazon elejio, odio tanto sentirme de esta manera, estos sentimientos que de alguna manera logran confundirme i hacen qe me aleje cada vez mas de mis objetivos, ya no son una piedra en mi camino se convirtieron en una enorme grieta la cual no puedo saltar, me  frustra mucho sentirme asi, i no poder encajar en ningun lado , gracias a qe yo misma me alejo de todo tratando de olvidar esto qe tengo dentro, como es posible qe se me halla metido tanto drama i problemas en casi dos años, PARECE COSA DE MAGIA! (? ok no .__. cosas de la vida supongo. Definitivamente el amor NO es para mi i eso qe solo tuve un novio en toda la puta vida D: como sea, estoi tratando de cambiar mi idealismo quizás asi las cosas salgan diferentes para mi, o eso es lo qe estoi esperando. FUCKKKKK T_____T

Una hostoria compartida

On the first page of our story the future seemed so bright, then this thing turned out so evil i don't know why i'm still surprised.
Even angels have their wicked schemes and you take that to new extremes but you'll always be my hero even though you've lost your mind. Just gonna stand there and watch me burn but that's all right because i like the way it hurts just gonna stand there and hear me cry, but that's all right because i love the way you lie.
Now there's gravel in our voices glass is shattered from the fight in this tug of war, you'll always win even when i'm right cause you feed me fables from your hand with violent words and empty threats and it's sick that all these battles are what keeps me satisfied . So maybe i'm a masochist, i try to run but i don't wanna ever leave til the walls are goin' up in smoke with all our memories.
It's morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face, smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction hush baby, speak softly, tell me you're awfully sorry that you pushed me into the coffee table last night. So i can push you off me try and touch me so i can scream at you not to touch me, run out the room and i'll follow you like a lost puppy, without you, i'm nothing, i'm so lost
hug me, then tell me how ugly i am, but that you'll always love me. Then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs
that we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills, i may have hit you three times, i'm startin' to lose count but together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain

our love is crazy, we're nuts, but i refused counsellin' this house is too huge, if you move out i'll burn all two thousan square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it with you i'm in my fuckin' mind, without you, i'm out it...

Honey, Honey.

Lately i've been hard to reach, i've been too long on my own everybody has a private world where they can be alone are you calling me? are you trying to get through, are you reaching out for me, like i'm reaching out for you? I'm just so fuckin' depressed, i just can seem to get out this slump if I could just get over this hump but i need something to pull me out this dump, i took my bruises, took my lumps fell down and i got right back up but i need that spark to get psyched back up i don't know how or why or when i ended up in this position i'm in i'm starting to feel distant again so i decided just to pick this pen up and try to make an attempt. I need a new outlet, i know some shit's so hard to swallow and i just can't sit back and wallow in my own sorrow but i know one fact I'll be one tough act to follow one tough act to follow i'll be one tough act to follow here today, gone tomorrow but you have to walk a thousand miles in my shoes, just to see what it's like, to be me i'll be you, let's trade shoes just to see what it'd be like to feel your pain, you feel mine go inside each other's mind just to see what we find look at shit through each other's eyes but don't let them say you ain't beautiful, they can all get fucked. I think i'm starting to lose my sense of humor everything is so tense and gloom i almost feel like i gotta check the temperature in the room just as soon as i walk in it's like all eyes on me so i try to avoid any eye contact because if i do that then it opens a door for conversation like i want that... i'm not looking for extra attention i just don't want to be just like you blend in with the rest of the room maybe just point me to the closest restroom i don't need no fucking man servant trying to follow me around and wipe my ass laugh at every single joke i crack and half of them ain't even funny like, you're so funny, you should be a comedian, god damn unfortunately i am, but i just hide behind the tears of a clown so why don't you all sit down? listen to the tale i'm about to tell hell, we don't gotta trade our shoes and you ain't gotta walk no thousand miles. Nobody asked for life to deal us

with these bullshit hands we're dealt, we have to take these cards ourselves and flip them, don't expect no help now i could have either just sat on my ass and pissed and moaned or take this situation in which i'm placed in and get up and get my own i was never the type of kid to wait by the door and pack his bags who sat on the porch and hoped and prayed for a dad to show up who never did i just wanted to fit in at every single place every school i went i dreamed of being that cool kid even if it meant acting stupid don't ever let no one tell you, you ain't beautiful.

Yo y mi otro yo.

Soy una chica muy tranqila, no muy sociable, enojona, me considero mui celosa con la persona qe amo i con mis amigos también, demaciado posesiva, egoista con lo que es mio, cosqilluda, bastante egocentrica, solitaria de vez en cuando, colgada, un poco fria pero cursi con la persona que amo,chiqilina, 'sensible', mui forra si quiero y con quien yo quiera, enana, pero sobretodo mui buena persona ♥.
No me gusta la gente falsa, los que te siguen mintiendo cuando ya sabes la verdad, la envidia aunque me hace sentir importante, la gente putera i turra, los negros cumbieros, esos que se creen bien rochos(?, las pelotudas forras sin imaginación qe te copian todo, los interesados, las mocosas, las personas imbésiles, sobre todo odio la discriminación esos estúpido que se creen importantes por "humillar" a los que son diferentes.
Me gusta pasar tiempo con mis amigos, con la persona qe amo, me gusta pasar mucho tiempo en la fucking computadora, viajar, no me gusta la cuidad amo pasar en la naturaleza, amo a los animales, me encata caminar por la orilla del mar de noche *-* , el helado, el invierno, los dias nublados, dibujar, escribir mucho cuando me inspiro, me gusta leer cosas de fantacía, los piercing i los tattoos, los cambios de color de pelo.
me gustan los japoneces son re bizarros me llaman la atención :B
me gusta el animé pero me llama más la tención los dibujitos animados Bob Esponja i Buggs Bunny son mis favoritos ♥.♥
le tengo fobia a las arañas odio demaciado a esas cosas horribles ._.
comprar ropa y championes me gusta mucho pero amo más comprar cosas relacionadas con la música como remeras de músicos i CD's, estoi todo el fucking day escuchando música, de hecho es mi vida (: hago i digo muchas boludeces aunqe quede como idiota ante los demás... NO me importa lo que los demás opinen de mi.
soy adicta al chocolate i a las gomitas de ositos .__.
odio que me apuren o que me griten, porque demoro más
odio que me digan CAMILITA -.-
cuando digo 'este me cae mal', ES ASI, me revienta las personas que se lucen, que se "creen" importantes i no son nada !
te trato como me trates ..
no me gustan las personas ladillas, esas que te hablan por chat i si no les contestas te empiesan a joder más -.-
Soi bien bipolar, me pasan muchas cosas por la cabeza i no comparto nada con nadie, quiero decir, no comparto mi dolor o pensamiento porqe no quiero qe los demas sientan lastima de mi o se sientan mal.
*Creo que con eso ya esta :)

-Alice Morse Earle & -St. Augustine

"The clock is running. Make the most of today. Time waits for no man. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why it is called the present."

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossoms had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."

You.

You mean a lot to me, and I love you so much, but sometimes I just feel so lonley, even in your company. I miss you all the time, and I feel so pathetic because I don’t know if you feel the same. You’ve got your life so occupied with all these interesting people and things, that I seem..well I feel like the bottom of your list of things to miss or even think about. I know, we’ve talked about it over a million times, and I really really wish that I could get all these negative and doubtful thoughts I have out of my head and keep them sealed out for good and forever, and for an instance..well sometimes they do come out, and I just feel so perfect with you. I wish it would be like that always, I love your hugs and your kisses, they mean the world to me. I just wish I could get myself, my life..I just wish I could get my head on straight for the both of us. I love you.

You’re a beautiful girl, fragile inside but beautiful. I just want you to know that I’ll be there for you always, throught anything and everything. You’re a good friend to me, I’ll keep on trying just for you, I’ve learned not to give up so easily.

I miss you, and hopefully I’ll see you sometime in the near future. I just wanted to include you in this list because I wanted to thank you for being my  one of the most important person in my life, So thanks for putting up with me haha, I love you.

I think I hate you a little too much, just saying. I’ve tried to stop, and be friendly but I can’t so I’m sorry. I know it’s not fair to you. I’ll admit that jealousy does play a part in it, so I feel bad about it.

*Please, don’t you dare hurt her, I’m not liking what I’m hearing about you.*